Lonely ..

Since he’s in camp , Im starting to haf the sense of backwardz and left behind.. Loneliness always occur, I dun deny that .. Duration of him in thr seems short but it aint easy for me.. Thiz nonsensical govt thing is so cruel .. Took him away frm me.. I travilized matters to avoid anything frm being volatile.. I mizz the affectionate him, his nonsensical etc .. I hope thiz will end soon .. I dun wana b alone ..

Nowadayz .. StreZz Liao ..

When was d last tym i did my post ? Hmmx.. Been a long tym.. Tiz iritating internet was not connected la, unplugged la tiz la tat la .. R.U.B.B.I.S.H !! Called the operator but all they did was pass here pass there without solving any of the prob .. Haiya!

Nxt mon da strt keja .. Strezz .. Lum dpt keja stress , da dpt keja stress , nk start keja pun stress .. Aiya .. Everythin la .. NO self confidence la .. BUT cant wait to see the babies! Here I come!

My sista got her sponsorship .. Alhamdulillah .. Hope all tiz akan kurangkan beban my parentz ..

Mizz my babygurl .. She’s now at her daddy’s hse .. haiz .. wanna Kidnap her la ..

5 minus 1 ..

My sista was complaining dat she’s hungry .. Mula2 nk buat bodoh je .. Kesian pulak, so in d middle of the nyte, I cooked chicken porridge for her .. While waiting for it to boil, I washed my terrapins ‘playground” .. Mcm biasa, I will disturb the eldest terrapin coz he’s a “Kanchong Spider” .. Dat actualli belongs to my babyboi .. Since he’s in camp, I took care of it for a while ..

Happily washing suddenly I realised smtg was wrong .. I shook the 3 baby terrapins .. 2 was alert.. BUT 1 did NOT respond.. Tryin to convinced myself dat he’s still alive, I pulled out the legs n pushed in the head but it doesnt react .. NO movement.. Looked into his eyes, it was already yellowish & sunken .. I was so0o upset till I almoz forgot that Im cooking .. Place him onto a folded tissue, continue wif my cooking 1st (**crying**).. Smsed my babyboi & Shaz dat itz dead .. Yeah true enuf when I bought him, he’s already sick .. But still, it saddens me ..

Settled with the dish, I stared at the dead terrapin .. Not wanting to believe dat he’s gone .. Cried & cried .. My sista was lyk saying. “Ya Allah! Itu yg kau nangis kan dari tadi?” Even thou, I luv animals esp when I’ve kept them .. Placed him in a small container, will get my brother to to burry him tomoro .. He’s beside me ryte now, while Im doin my typing.. Wat saddens me most is when I saw part of his shell cracked ..He’s still a baby, shell stil fragile .. U know..

4 terrapins left in their playground .. **Cried too much** .. Nvm Let him go .. U can rest now .. 😥

– The Friday I had Today –

FRIDAY 28.03.08 

Woke up early in d morning at 7 .. Ready for interviu at KK !! Was so excited, was so ready, was so confident (at 1st la kan) .. 1st thing in the morning after meeting Shaz, we took an IC photo .. Ya Allah .. It turns out lyk a M.A.I.D .. Oh yes we realli looked lyk 1 in dat IC photo .. Me, wif the eyebags lyk maid kena punch from the “employer” & Shaz wif her mata juling.. Oh All gone wrong tpi tkpe la sape nk tgk kan kan kan .. Only d 2 of us ..  **Chuckles**

Reached KK abt 9.40am .. Met the HR person.. Me & Shaz was lyk excited so we took a pic of us in thr.. Da confident2 nk interviu skali ternmpk tu Matron enter the “Meeting Rm 2″ .. Omg! Semangat trus ilang .. Enter the room, step la kan, greet la konon .. hahakz .. Tu sumer belakon coz tgh nervous kan .. everythin mcm cramp gitu .. Tk kena gaya aku! But she was nice thou .. hopefully I get the Job.. Insya’allah .. May Allah be kind to me .. Amin ..

After all dat we went to this coffee shop (I forgot the name) @ Bugis.. Had Laksa & Shaz had her mee wanton .. Da kenyang, we head to Century Square at tampines, down we go to the basement & sat on the Ogawa massage chair .. Shio0kkk!!!!!! Skali spoil la.. Mak aku datang .. Hahax .. Followed her to the NTUC & went home eventually (Kaki aku da penat!)

Today babyboi’s book out day .. After doing my cooking, I baring2 wait for his kol.. So excited to mit him.. Maklumla, da 5hari tak jumpa .. **Mizz him!** Last2 tertdo! Lucky I heard his fon call at 6.50pm .. Since he promised to mit me at 7.30pm, I quickly bathe & Im all ready by 7.15pm .. Smsed & called him, NO reply, NO respond .. He arrived at 8.15pm!! I was so0o0o fed up tat I asked him ” Asal I msg tk reply, asal I kol tk angkat, asal I kol ur uma cant get thru ” .. His reason : *Mandi* .. Dlm hati, I was lyk ” Mandi ke berendam ke Tenggelam trus?! ” .. Krana phrase aku tu, he bingit wif me lyk wat!! Eh hello !! Im the one who’s suppose to b angry at YOU YOU YOU !! Wateva la kan .. as usual klau da tgh marah, he speeds .. Tadi was 165km/hr .. Itz my nyawa dat u’re putting in Danger, do YOU understand Mr. ??! Tk kuasa nk gado, I give in .. Smtyms I tink that he’s a bit TOO much .. But sayang punye pasal la I put dat EGO aside .. So wat if u penat in camp?? Dun haf to vent ur anger lyk dat la . U made me cry dpan org ramai .. Klau penat SANGAT and IF u dun tink u can talk to me nicely, DUN bother to mit la! ** Urgh!!!**

Tpi tkpe la, forget the past la eh.. Forget the EGO .. Itz him the ONLY 1 I love ..  Still,  kan .. kadang2 G.E.R.A.M tau .. Sangat sangat !! Hmmxx …

* Sorie Mr Interviewer *

Mommy pekik2 at me early2 in d morning, 8am.. My interviu is at 1.30pm sei .. Plz…have some *peace* .. I nid some sleep .. She keep spraying me wif water endlezzly .. Org yg nk interviu, dia yg kanchong semacam .. Hmmx.. k la, she’s always lyk dat ..

Met wanda at interchnge to take Nursing uniform for my sista .. Thanks Wanda!

I tag my sis along .. Meet Shaz kat station .. Phewweett!!!! Kasot heels sei .. hahaha .. U know how well we can tolerate & last with the “shoes” kan .. Arrived at Ngee Ann city at 12.16pm .. We’re early bebeh ..More than punctual tau .. BUT ..

Kat office interviu tu, fortunately I read the T&C before signing anythin .. Saw the declaration thingy stated that it’s a confirm that we’ll get the job upon signing the contract BUT if we do not start werk or resigned within 90 days, we’l haf to pay them 80% of our monthly pay .. Oh My .. No No No .. Ape lgi .. Know wadz in my mind ? C.A.B.O.T uh !!!I sneak out of the office with the form in my hand trus head towards the lif .. Shaz lak went to the tolilet b4 escaping .. Wat a plan ! ahaha! Abt 15 minutes later, 5 different numbers frm tat agency called n smsed me,asking me to come for the interviu .. Nasib baik la tk sign apape .. Jgn ckp tk sign, the form pun I brought home!

Ok2 tknk ingat2 pasal the suppose-to-be -interviu thing tu .. Im ready for tomoro’s KK interviu bebeh! Hopefully dpt .. Insya’allah ..

Tiz is For You SwiTheaRt ..

http://youtube.com/watch?v=gS12gIpHfa4

Tired ..

Early2 in d morning , my babygurl already wake me up .. Alahai .. Lum puas rehat ..

Went Swimming today with My babygurl, Shazoo, Milah & Amira .. Went quite late thou .. I didnt enjoy much coz my gurl was lyk crying the whole tym we’re thr .. G.E.R.A.M tau !!!!!!!!!! Mula2 mcm ye ye nk g pastu da smpai melalak.. Takot la ni la tu la !! Ikot kan hati mcm nk campak aje dlm swimming pool !!  So while the rest swim, I haf to take care of her.. Within the short half an hour, I already took her out of the pool & get her changed .. Went to pasar malam & bought some stuff to munch .. Biase la lpas swim kan lapar ..

Reached home, fed my gurl mee soup .. Get changed and evrything, I waited for my babyboi to call .. He cant call me often as his batt flatt .. finally at 10pm, he called using his fren’s Hp .. Chat only arnd 15mins .. His voice, I know he’s realli exhausted .. Kesian my dear .. Obviously he dun haf enuf sleep .. Y are d trainers thr lyk sh!t uh .. Wat a torture for him! Wonder wat he eats .. I know he doesnt Lyk *Chickens* like he used to .. Coz hari2 kat sana mkn ayam till rejects them .. Hope he’ll get over it soon .. I realli MIZZ the tyms we had DAILY ..

Terrapins Oh Terrapins ..

Was woken up by my dearie babygurl .. It was lyk 9am & I havent got enuf sleep .. Turned to the right, look at my Hp, NO messages .. Turned to the left, saw my babygurl with her eyes Wide open .. She stared at me and said out only 1 phrase, “Mama, I want tortise” ..  I was lyk, ok ok later ..  ( She wants her OWN terrapins you see ) .. Around 10minutes later, she went out of the room & complaint to my mum, Crying ..  “Nenek .. Mama dun wanna wake up! No one wana buy for me tortise .. ”

She was so Into the terrapin thing .. till she dun even haf a proper sleep.. So by 10am, she jumped onto me, pulling my eyelids, kissing my hair, non-stop whisper at my ears, forcing me to wake up & so I did out of frustration .. She keep pulling me to see my 2 terrapins, se said ” Mama, the tortise cant finish their food ” .. To my suprised, the tank was flooded with food !!! I shouted at her for wasting them ..  Ahh pat camni dia trus lari pegi kat nenek dia, takot kena pukul .. I asked her to wash the tank & so she did .. Kesian syg mama 1 ni .. Hehe .. Nvm, bully her skali skala ..

Fed her chicken porridge & fried bee hoon for breakfast & out we went.. Met shaz arnd noon at cheers .. Sanggupnye kau dukung dia Shaz in the TM.. Klau aku da lempar aje .. Hehe.. Brought some food for Shaz & accompany her eat behind TM.. Sori lerr mak aku yg pack kan kau byk cmtu .. Kesian termengah2 mkn forcing herself to finish up the food .. Pastu , went to blk 800+ to but my dearie babygurl’s tortise .. Ok.. We bought 4 of them .. Cheap liao ! 4 for $7 .. ape lagi .. Grab them! ( 1 for Shaz .. 2 for my babygurl & 1 for my additional in the tank )

Imagine me, Shaz & thiz lil gal WALK frm interchnge to this terrapin shop ( estimately arnd 5 bustops distance ) then WALK home ..Took arnd 1hr sei .. I almoz give up ! Forcing n pushing ourselves, sampai jgk rumah akhirnya.. Shaz followed us home ..

Had dinner & arnd 8pm, we left house for NUH to visit my cuzzie’s wifey again .. Luckily thiz tym naik kreta .. Klau tk, pengsan babe! Tk boleh angkat la those public transport! Reached thr arnd 1/2 hr later .. Kak Wan Oh Kak Wan .. Kiter datang untuk visit dia, dia pulak yg bagi we all makan .. Thanks to her mum, nice food BUT we’re too full .. However, kiter mkn jgk.. We force Shaz to eat till she feels lyk vomiting ..

We left the hospital arnd 10pm+ .. Kesian my dad sampai tertdo2 kat sana .. He’s shagged after work tpi nk jgk g hospital ..  Lpas tu, Drive Shaz home .. Reached home arnd 11pm, put on diapers for my babygal thinking she would sleep .. Placed her on her bed, the nxt moment I turned, She’s already outside playing with her terrapins.. Oh No !! she doesnt wanna sleep!! It took me almox 2hrs to get her into bed .. I smsed Shaz ” How’s ur terrapin? Ur mum knows abt it ?” And she replied, ” I hide it .. Only my Sis knws abt it ” ..

Shaz Oh Shaz .. Kalau la pagi2 mak kau nmpk, tk ke terperanjat beruk org tu nmpk tu kura-kura .. Aiya .. Funny la U ..

Ok2 got to End here … NAK  TERBERAK !!

A flashEd BacK ..

My Secondary School tyms was worst in my whole schooling life .. Things are jx not gg good.. “Friends” were treating me lyk enemies for I dunno y .. Till now.. I dun haf the answer .. Only the remain knowz …

Starting off with my very 1st year .. In sec 1.. Lame sec 1 i mean .. Met the twins ( R & R ) and “H”, the sawan gurl .. (God plz forgive me for calling her that) .. We became close & unfortuately, as days passed by, Im influenced by them .. They taught me how to lie, being rebel and all those stuffs, u know .. As a No-One, still finding my own identity, I followed them .. Mama got to know Im mixing with the bad company, beat me up till I bleed, slammed me till Im half dead.. Still I dun learnt my lesson .. My “frenz” said that was jx a part of life .. I agreed.. They started smoking but I refused .. They started fighting, I tagged but stayed far .. Almoz a year passed by, I began to realize .. I began to feel the sense of regret .. I shudnt make my mum cry.. If only I cud hold back her tears, I wud .. Due to the nonsense I’ve done, I failed my Sec 1 posting ..

My retained “Sec 1” .. I stayed far frm (R & R.. and H) Wheneva I avoid them, they keep coming back .. They wanted me to have a tattoo lyk theirs.. A lil piece of heart shape on the butt .. Ridiculous .. They know I wont do it .. But still pester me arnd.. S.T.U.P.I.D !! Got to avoid them only after 3 to 4 mths of my pathetic ratined sec 1 and which I had a hair cut that makes me looks realli lyk a silly K1 kid.. Found new frens but later left me for others .. So, I dun bother la .. Who cares kan .. Im so used to it ..  Diz tym round, I score better grades & happy abt it ..

2002, Sec 2 .. Was in 2a2 .. Nothing much on tiz yr .. Hav a goodfren but now, she’s already bz with her life ( husby & babygurl ) .. So be as it is .. I moved on lyk others .. Jx dat mine is different.. with a thinking mind..

2003 was hectic wif a tidious class .. Name it and u’ll get it .. Hypocriete? Iritating? Step Cute? Step jambu? Jambu batu? Yg Gatal nk mampoz? apape la.. sumer nye ade ..Especially tat gurl whose name starts wif R, middle has a letter F&Q,  endz with H .. Oh My! Ade hati nk make up kan org, satu2 yg dia make up kan turn out to be lyk a bapok .. U know bapok face .. Ahahahaha! K la tkpe .. Tak leh salah kan dia pun .. U know, b4 u do make up to others, u must look at the mirror .. Look at urself n make it done lyk it .. So get wat I mean ? An original turns out lyk a bapok coz a the “artist la konon” look at the mirror b4 doing so .. Ehehehe.. Hmmx ..  Sec 3 la class paling bising, nakal wif some iritating wanna-be(s).. W-A-T-E-V-A

Sec4.. Anotha drama .. Ppl chosed their own frens, gossiping lyk the whole world is theirs..But I did my part .. I stayed .. even thou its hard .. Ppl dun lyk me due to the discrimination made by the last year’s Sec3 gal wif a bapok face .. If only u know wad I mean .. But nvm .. I scored good n made it to anotha round .. Sec 5..

Boooo!! Sec 5 babeh .. Last round.. Anotha tough year .. Facing some identical faces .. Tpi I dun care.. I made my own choice , lead my own life, have my own peace and score with my own gd effort .. With my dearest cikgu fauziya’s support, Im keen to learn.. Made it! Get to sit in a nice government sch aircon class in ITE .. Hey, whr r u guys ? Who’ve been talking behind my back ? Come again ??? Sitting at home abexkan beras mak?? Oh k la, gd choice indeed ! Sayonara!!  Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I  S.U.R.V.I.V.E.D !!!

Wat a Day ..

So STRESS !! Havent got a job yet .. Its been 2weeks that i’ve been searching for job but to NO avail .. Oh GOD .. I realli nid 1 .. Plz b Kind to me ..

Today went to NUH to visit my Cuzzie’s wifey .. Oh My .. The journey was soOoOo Long .. I couldnt imagine wad will happen to me if I were to werk thr .. I’ll become a zombie I guex .. Pegi balek perjalanan da la lama .. The food pun tk la sedap sgt ( I mean the canteen) .. The place pun mcm lack of space ( the Main building ).. Lucky Kak Wan is in “A” class ward .. Woohoo ! Mcm Hotel sei ..

Left the hospital arnd 8pm+ .. Guex wad tym i reached home .. ALmox MidNight !! Thatz hw tiring the journey was.. Ok well da sampai pun rumah .. Shagged but still haf to layan my dearie babygirl .. She keep playing with my 2 terrapins which she called “tirtoise” .. Funny isnt it .. Mata da kuyu, tpi nk nk jgk main2 dgn tu 2 terrapin.. Nk cuci la, nk feed la, nk carry la .. Last tk last tercampak benda tu.. Until dia dgn tu terrapin skali tertdo on the couch..

Wat a day .. Howeva, I wont stop praying to God .. May he give me a suitable job soon .. Amin ..